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fandom survey [05 Jun 2011|06:34pm]
[ mood | bored ]

insight into my TV watchingCollapse )

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that sunday shine is a certain sign that you'll feel as fine as you look [07 Apr 2010|12:29am]
[ mood | amused ]

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No one on the corner got swagger like us [02 Mar 2010|12:49pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

I GOT INTO GA STATE UNIVERSITY!!!

The funny thing is they sent me an e-mail instead of a letter. I was amused. So this means every school I applied to (since I didn't finish kennesaw yet) has accepted me. If nothing else, that's pretty impressive.

Got an e-mail from u of chicago about my preliminary award, unless I win the lottery in the next week, I just can't do it. If I went to grad school in ga totally on loans it would be like a quarter of what I would have to borrow for the first year of chicago.

So I'm just waiting on that call to make my desicion. I'm currently leaning toward UGA anyway but we'll see.

Dang, I never thought I'd get in to all of them. Whoa.

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Some good news! [22 Feb 2010|04:59pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

I GOT INTO UNIVERSITY OF CHICAGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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[30 Jul 2008|02:07pm]
1. Add a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot.

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It’s actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I’ll assume you’re playing the game and I’ll come to your blog and leave one about you.

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I can't stop from sippin love on the rocks [16 Apr 2008|01:01pm]
[ mood | worried ]

We met on a rainy evening in the summertime
Don't think I need to tell you more
I needed a raise I worked so hard for this love of mine
Still I got nothing to show for it.


Tongue tied and twisted, go on baby and go to my head.

Here's a simplification of everything we're going though
You plus me is bad news
But you're a lovely creation and I like to think that I am too
But my friend said I look better without you.


Tongue tied and twisted, go on baby and go to my head.

Babe, baby believe me
If I stay it ain't gonna be easy
Okay we'll do it your way
But this is the last time
You'll hear the beautiful sound of love coming down
Love on the rocks.

You love the chase but hate me for the runaround
We both just tired of the whole thing.
You tell me what you want you need you know you have to have
And I just pretend I'm listening

Too tired this time to deal with old suits you wear with your ties that won't bind.

Babe, baby believe me
If I stay it ain't gonna be easy
Okay we'll do it your way
But this is the last time
You'll hear the beautiful sound of love coming down
Love on the rocks.

Hot as hell cold as ice sip it slow cause it's so nice
Dulls my senses drives my pain but I do it again
Burns a bit to the touch dangerous if it's too much
If this bottle could talk
Love on the rocks


Babe, baby believe me
If I stay it ain't gonna be easy
Okay we'll do it your way
But this is the last time
You'll hear the beautiful sound of love coming down
Love on the rocks.

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seriously? [02 Mar 2008|06:52pm]
[ mood | sick ]

So I wake up Friday morning with one of the worst sore thoarts ever, I'm dizzy and unbelievably(sp?) nauseous. So I don't go to my first two classes, take some medicine which doesn't help then go get my military ID (for my medical insurance) renewed with my mom, only to discover I needed a piece of paperwork that I didn't have so I had to drive back to campus then drive back to the navy school and wait in line again. Then I had class and had to drive home with my head in my hands because the pain was horrible and yesterday it was even worse. Today I feel a little better but this is going to be one of the busiest weeks of my life and I really need to get well before I don't know, tomorrow! ahh! I just hope things get better, I just really need things to be better.

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well said rachael yamagata [28 Feb 2008|12:01am]
[ mood | discontent ]

If I could take you away
Pretend I was queen
What would you say
Would you think I'm unreal
'Cause everybody's got their way I should feel

Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love

Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real
Want to be your everything

Everything...

Everything's falling, and I am included in that
Oh, how I try to be just okay
Yeah, but all I ever really wanted
Was a little piece of you


And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

Everything will be alright
If you just stay the night
Please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away
Please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away

And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

And everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love, for real
Everybody's talking how I, can't, can't be your love
But I want, want, want to be your love
Want to be your love for real

I want to be your love, love, love

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[08 Jan 2008|11:32pm]
[ mood | content ]

So classes have been going well these first few days although I already have loads of work to do but honestly I'm lovin every second. I am so excited about this semester.

Went over my evaluation with my supervisor of which she gave me a glowing review. The only issue is, technically i'm on academic probation (from having dropped a class last semester) which makes me inelligble(sp?) for a transfer but they do make exceptions. She said she didn't want to promise me anything but she wanted to make me aware. I will be so sad if I'm not even allowed to APPLY for a transfer. I seriously just want the chance, it wouldn't be the end of the world if I were here one more year (although I hope that won't be the case) but I just want to be sure I did everything I could.

I've been doing pretty well on my new year's resolution/plan thingy. It's a little easier when you only promise one thing. I think keeping my mind off of relationships is going to be made much easier by the focus on school which is made much easier by having classes I'm itching to learn in. Spanish is really the only thing I'm nervous about but that happens every semester so it's nothing new.

I just finished reading The Tao of Pooh, it's short and sweet. I suggest it. Now I have to find something new and awesome to read although I think I might just reread some things. I haven't read White Oleander in a while. Who knows? I also have all of my lovely textbooks to read.

I guess that's it for life as I know it right now. It's pretty boring and I apologize but it's me. <3!

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so i'm sick [23 Dec 2007|04:37pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

well i'm getting better but it's already Sunday and the only day I remember clearly is Friday. I got home Friday night and at around 1am started throwing up and didn't finish till 2pm on Saturday, I had to sleep in the doorway next to the toilet. Sorry if it's TMI. I think it was food posioning but it could have easily been my baby cousin, who apparently is sick. *sigh*, nothing makes you feel more lonely than being sick. God love my mother but she's not all that good at taking care of me when I'm sick, I don't even get whiny and she gets aggravated when I ask her for things then gets mad that I have crawled into the kitchen for a glass of water when "you could have just asked me".

In other news, I got paid early which was a relief. Unfornutely I wasn't able to continue shopping because of the sickness. Now I have a mountain of cleaning to do and I have to do it all tomorrow since I'm still so exhausted.

I've become very aquainted with the beauty of free movies On Demand and I watched Boys On the Side, I really liked it. I recommend it. That's it for now I guess.

I would say I'm looking forward to Christmas but I'm really looking forward to it being done which is sad because I honestly love Christmas, I just hate that it's at my house and I hate how bitchy my mom gets every year.

I want to go on a road trip. So fucking bad. *sigh*

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i really hate finding old letters [20 Dec 2007|01:24am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

that i wrote to a certain someone and realizing not only did she not deserve me but i gave her too much of myself, i was reaching out to someone who wouldn't have understood anyway. *sigh*

i did christmas shopping today and bought alot of people presents. what makes me the saddest though is that i'm not done and i just do not have money. grrr. i might just end up making a lot of scarfs. hmm.

break is going pretty well though, i feel like i've been productive which is why tomorrow i'm resting and probably cleaning. i am in the mood for adventure though. a really good adventure.

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never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain [18 Nov 2007|01:02am]
[ mood | confused ]

I have a paper I haven't started yet but then again what else is new? I've been on duty all weekend and it's been pretty uneventful. I'm kind of sad because Krush Girls is tonight and I'm here instead of dancing my ass off with friends.

I guess I'm just kind of in a mood because I have a research paper due after thanksgiving (and a stat test, the last one before the final so I have to do well) which means I won't be doing that much relaxing over break because it's not something I can procrastinate on. Also I think mom expects me to figure out all the financial business for my study abroad trip before the end of the semester and just thinking about it with all the stuff I have to do with finals, ahhh!. I know the trip is incredibly expensive for just 5 weeks but it would be so perfect and I would be done with my minor, which actually makes me a little nervous because I really don't want to loose spanish but I can't say I'm that active in trying to retain it.

I just feel a little in a funk like there is something wrong that I'm not recognizing. Something that is just below the surface and it's like I'm almost afraid to know what it is but it seems that way quite often. I haven't been able to find the right words lately. I can't articulate anything the way I want to and it's driving me crazy. I feel off and I'm not quite sure what to do to fix it. *sigh*.

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I would love a day [08 Nov 2007|01:21pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

where i can get up, look in the mirror and be content. I don't need to be happy but content would be golden. *sigh*.

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fallen, yes i have fallen and she keeps callin me back again [04 Nov 2007|10:18pm]
[ mood | okay ]

So the most exciting thing I've learned this weekend is how to purl (in terms of knitting for those who don't know). It really is more exciting than it sounds.

I got a little sick yesterday and I think I'm feeling withdrawal from Diet Coke. I really am trying to quit.

Saw Hairspray here at school on friday which rocked, I can't wait till it's on video.

Life is good and this week should be light which i'm excited about after the stress of last week's test. i guess there isn't much else except new icons! <3!

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[29 Oct 2007|12:31pm]
[ mood | busy ]

I'm debating on whether or not I should ask for noise cancelling headphones for christmas. On the one hand, they are amazing, on the other I could get hit by a bus while walking with them on. I proposed the idea to mom to which she responded in proper "mom" fashion "only for inside use", i'll see.

Fall Break was incredibly relaxing and a little too short. I did realize a couple of things though, when I let go, truly let go, God really does take care of it. My overanalyzing and intense thinking gets me no where most of the time but when I let it go, really let it go, it's amazing how much pressure is taken off and how much better I feel. I also got to spend some time with mom which felt good. I miss her alot and tend to ignore her when I go home and I hate that. I also met some of her friends which my mom hangs out with so many gay people which I guess is to be expected with her work with PFLAG. Anyway there is this lesbian couple who have the cutest little boy ever and a t-shirt company which I'm thinking of asking them to make me a hoodie or two.

I have a stat test tomorrow and I don't think I've ever been more nervous about a test in my life. I have absolutely no idea what is going on in one of the chapters it covers and I did horribly on my last homework. Hopefully the review session today will help me. I guess that's really it for me right now. I'm just trying to really concentrate on school and working through some 'me' issues. <3!

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we're just ordinary people, we don't know which way to go, cause we're ordinary people [17 Oct 2007|11:31pm]
[ mood | weird ]

I had breakfast this morning, I have gotten how greatly that can improve life. I have come to the conclusion that not only have I been talking too much but talking too much about myself lately. It's like half the time I know I'm being inappropriate and selfish but I can't stop myself. Like somehow my willpower and sense leaves me and someone else is talking and going through my life. I don't really like this feeling at all. So instead of complaining and watching myself, I'm going to try this whole actively doing things, we'll see if it works.

So I noticed something else as well. So many people say one day at a time, like that's how you get through something and I've been thinking too many times I go to sleep saying I'll do something tomorrow. Tomorrow I'll say what I actually feel, starting tomorrow I'll have a diet plan that works, Tomorrow I'll start walking to class, Tomorrow I will address all these issues that eat me up inside instead of waking up in the morning and saying I'll try it today. I'll do this today. So once again something I'm working on.

In other news, life is as it usually is. My grandmother sent me some money which is greatly needed because somehow my ability to live on a budget has left me. So hopefully I can stretch things out till the end of october. School is ok, I have a few tests in the next couple weeks that I'm a little worried about but other than that, not much. I still have some of the most amazing people in my life and such which is good. I guess that's all for now.

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[30 Sep 2007|02:06pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

it's cold in my room. this weekend has been chill, I'm on duty but aching to go somewhere, just a few more hours and I'm set.

I still haven't gotten much schoolwork done but hopefully I can sort through some of that today. My bulletin boards are due today, ahhh!

So I had like 7 people in my room last night, chillin, singing and having loads of fun, it made my night and the people I've been on duty with are amazing.

I finished my book Eat. Pray. Love . Amazing, I think I might read it again before I start loaning it out. It has really helped put things into perspective and I have a game plan, we'll just see if I can stick to it. That's it I suppose. <3!

p.s. if anyone wants to buy my christmas gift early, i want this hoodie
http://www.kurthalsey.com/wearables.html, just sayin.

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bad news, bad news, baby i'm bad news... [27 Sep 2007|11:45pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

I think it's time for new icons. In other news, this week has been so much better than last week.

The Brandi Carlile concert on Tuesday was amazing, i can't stop bringing it up, considering she did like a 7 song encore and was so personable and all about the music. It makes me want to write songs so badly but I can't seem to find the right words to mesh with the right music, i'll work on it.

School has been ok, I still need to focus a lot more and such. I still am thinking about the whole counseling thing, we'll see how that goes.

I'm on duty this weekend but I think I'm feeling a chill weekend, I really should use the time to get caught up on life and do laundry like whoa. I get paid tomorrow! Yay! I need it too.

I'm off to bed. <3!

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many the miles [21 Sep 2007|12:30am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

There's too many things that i haven't done yet
Too many sunsets
I haven't seen
You can't waste the day wishing it'd slow down
You would've thought by now
I'd have learned something

I made up my mind when i was a young girl
I've been given this one world
I won't worry it away
But now and again i lose sight of the good life
I get stuck in a low light
But then Love comes in


How far do i have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
How far do i have to go to get to you
Many the miles
But send me the miles and i'll be happy to follow you Love

I do what i can wherever i end up
To keep giving my good love
And spreading it around
Cause i've had my fair share of take care and goodbyes
I've learned how to cry
And i'm better for that


Sing how far do i have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
How far do i have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Send me the miles and i'll be happy to
Follow you Love

Red letter day and i'm in a blue mood
Wishing that blue would just carry me away
I've been talking to God don't know
If it's helping or not
But surely something has got to got to got to give
Cause i can't keep waiting to live


How far do i have to go to get to you
Many the miles
Many the miles
How far do i have to go to get to you
Many the miles


There's too many things i haven't done yet
Too many sunsets i haven't seen


i learned today that it's a good idea to wait until you've heard both sides of a story until you get upset and that i have some of the most amazing friends in the world...i'm gonna be ok, one bad week will not ruin me, i will pick myself up and have a great weekend and strive for a better week next week.

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all we can do is keep breathing... [19 Sep 2007|10:09am]
[ mood | blah ]

I had to convince myself to wake up this morning, I really fought myself. I didn't do well on my stat test and this of course is totally my fault because I skipped one two many classes.

Yesterday wasn't all that beautiful of a day until the end really. I took my test cursing myself because I once again fucked up and haven't buckled down on school. So after that I went to eat after a lovely conversation with my grandma about how Mary Frances Early (the first African American to graduate from UGA who also used to teach with my grandmother) was on campus and I missed her again and I went to eat in one of the dining halls and someone called me a "dyke". I was like "come again?" and he was like "i didn't say anything", I figured he wasn't worth the trouble but he did not exactly make my day better.

But then I went to chat and danced with some peeps, came home showered and checked on a couple of residents.

However I do still have a crush on someone and I think it's funny that I look at that as one of the worst things that can happen to me. Probably because I can get so incredibly carried away and then I get so devastated when someone doesn't like me and yet i am so surprised and scared when someone actually does. I just really want to not be attracted to anyone right now, which of course is when things like this happen. Plus I hate that I get possessive and ridiculous when I like someone. Why can't things just be simple?

Hopefully the rest of this week will be better, I'm just having one of those lives i guess.

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